Me?

I was so tired of being responsible employee,wife,mother,etc.I have stopped complaining thinking it only disrupts the peace in house. Huge compromise at career has made me loose interest in growth factor in my industry. With kids around and doing my duty with love was my foremost happiness it seems. While travelling in bus to work I used to get third seat on the left row. I put my headset on and listen to same of songs in cyclic mode. One fine day,a very tall and well built man in his forties entered bus. He took my permission before taking seat next to me!I was little surprised as have never seen anyone doing so.Rarely anyone  seeks permission if there is empty seat.He offered him a chocolate after a while. Its a diary milk -my favourite. But I have been given a chocolate before .Last time it was my college friends who had gifted me at my birthday!I reluctantly accepted. He started a small conversation which was mostly about places that are worth visiting in city!He stopped in between to ask which place you like the most.I replied -"My home".Certainly but where do you unwind and be yourself.I started thinking -"My paternal home".To which he replied,"Lets get down in next stop and i will take to a place nearby".I was taken aback how can he think I am available to roam around city with a stranger.He interrupted my train of thoughts by saying "you can walk off mid way if not comfortable".I nodded as if a fair deal. We got down and after walking a while there was a calm place with small cafe. It was having all earthen feel and look .I loved having tea and samosa at that shop. I offered to pay but he intervened to allow him. I applied for a half day knowing I won't be able to reach on time. Suddenly I realized that I was not looping those task list or thinking about todays meeting agenda. His smile was warm and friendly. There was beautiful art museum next to the cafe,we visited it .Fine arts have been my interest but never thought I will allow some time to myself for it. He insisted for street shopping in near by street .I ended up buying what I like with few interest and suggestion that I believe I haven't got in a while. He bought couple of orchids and walked beside me again.With dhaba style lunch ,I planned to wrap this meeting with this wonderful stranger. I thanked him for wonderful time and offered to pay the bill to which he disapproved. He gave me those beautiful orchids to me and said "Hope these flowers reduces the creases that you have piled up on your forehead while worrying. We have been travelling in same bus for past three years yet I am sure you must not have noticed me. I am travelling on site after 10 days and have always thought of meeting and telling you. You are very beautiful."We paused and looked at each other .I thanked again and turned towards bus stop. A tear drop welled up whose basis of existence was not well known. Happy and sad ,I moved back to my life. Hoped all these time to meet him again even though I know  our path won't cross again!

Unhappy Wife⚘

Once a lady was unhappy with her husband that he never brings roses for her!Their was arranged marriage and she knew they could be never be romantic couples.His way was different in every matter.One fine sunny Sunday,she saw him planting few stems in pots of the garden.Took out few minutes from his busy schedule to water and cut the plant to shapes.From the bed,she will be noticing out of window glass pane;his effort to each plant!Must be his hobby ,she would think and get back to her novel again!She would try to find Love and Romance from the reads and believe that they really don't exist in real life!A month passed by,now was time for husband to be on tours. Occasionally, she will be watering the plants or rain will do that job for her.One fine day she saw buds on plant.Each day one will blossom as she looks out of window . Finally one day she saw 6 dark red roses on a plant .She got of bed and went to balcony . Their fragrance could be smelt from far within bedroom even.She happily clicked one,wondering if she can captured those fragrance even.She sent that click to her hubby as message . He replied "Hope you are no more angry now,I love you too".Tear rolled down from her cheek . Finally she found love out of her novel world!

To My Wife🍷

Early morning flight are always painful!I had to rush ,as my flight is at 6am.Left home as usual 2 hrs before .This is quite a norm when you are in big city to avoid hassle due to traffic mess!Before I could tie by shoelace ,cab arrived!Took all my belongings from drawer and started to leave after giving a peck on wife's cheek.While sitting in cab ,I wondered if I have missed a thing. Calmed self for todays meeting with client. Took out handkerchief  to wipe face,a glance on it made me smile!
There was a note on it,"Take care, Love"!
It was embroidered with red thread. I have missed to notice everything that went proper and on time required so much effort from her. A moment,to think about my ironed clothes ,private garments all stacked up for 5 days with an extra pair ,incase I would need one!Each of socks was having its pair in opening,so that I don't waste time searching. All handkerchiefs in are each pair of trouser. Medicine and  toiletries  in proper section. Cookies and quick bites at another. My drawer had all belongings such as wallet,keys,charger,watch etc for me fetch easily. Hot breakfast on table... My time saved for she dint bother to complete her sleep .I didn't thank her..well,I can't and won't!For all these are her way of loving me.Nor will flowers or any gift be of any importance for her. I wispered "You too take care ,My Love".Thinking of her as my better half in true sense and thankful to God in every possible way. There will be my turn to love you back.But for now,couldn't  help with a smile and thinking of grand toast.."To my Wife"!

A blank moment..

After my meeting ,I was hurrying up to catch metro!I have to pick my daughter from her school in an hour!Though I will be reaching before that but I prefer to wait than to be late. Other side of station there was lady whom I recognise from my glorious past days.She is my one and only Ex. For a moment, I went blank ,didn't realise I was standing in mid of busy stations. Her face is so familiar to me that it never made me feel she is different from me. Those beautiful eyes bore down and find answers from my soul .Her lips are still wearing those rose pink shade which made me feel the warmth of our kiss.Jhumkis on her ear gives peck on her soft cheek whenever it bounced to and fro. She looked up ,a strand of hair came across her face with light wind.Confused ,she stood up to recognise me!A streak of pain and joy ran over face . I smiled back with half raised hand waving her...In fraction train appeared and she vanished!I kept coming back at same time everyday ,hoping to see her back again!But never tried to search or be in touch over phone or social media for her welfare. I felt a pang of pain with sense of emptiness from then on . Happy in way to know though she still reflects my heart!

Beauty and The Beast!!!

Well! I haven’t become story teller yet except for kid that likes whatever I fabricate. I have been telling a lot this story "Beauty and The Beast"!Seems quite popular with kids. Even I am now listening a track that in video is about same story ”Tum todo na dil mera” from movie "I"
Love this line "Tere surath marham hai dujee rahat koi na".Wow, how beautifully lyricist put these words. I believe strongly have to be in that moment or to feel it to write that beautifully except you are miraculously gifted :P 

A day off to yourself ,is such a splendid thing when mind is jammed up with so much. Work design to implement, my savings, investments, cleanup, household chore, pay insurance, shopping plan, meet my frnd etc etc .Shut off machine. Love the flair of winter ,happiness oozes when you look around. Been stuck in lady Diana admiration ,so much that I though ,give a space over my venting lane. I know pals aroud me had heard enough about it from me. But wait I have to put more .I like that lady so much not that she is for me one of most beautiful and elegant lady to remember for lifetime. The more I read about her ,I feel strongly about her. Let me tell you why briefly...She married in her teens to a man who is more older for love offcourse and have 2 great boys from that relationship. A strong mother ,a beautiful heart with taking up so much after splitting from 11 years of marriage. This long you become so much close to your partner, sometimes I feel couple start talking like each other and i feel sometime they  look alike. No its not crazy ..coz I belong to a category who still believes marriage are made in heaven. There are tough times one has to go through ,u cannot give up on other ,take time to correct self and make the partner feel about not in words but your deed. No 2 humans can stay without any friction ,they are awesum and bonded when they can get over it that friction era maturely. Both are wheels of chariot, irrespective of your gender ,remember life journey will be slow or affected if one is burdened...To put in other invest on relationship with spouse for you kid to have a happy and healthy growing years and also the memories tht he builds from it will make him look to future with positivity and a health normal family life with his/her spouse. Make sense ..eh ?Coming back to Diana. Oh my god! how much love she could give to her kids at least what I can see from those videos ...Someone told me rightly you are different person when you are mom :D. How come this whole world there can’t be a single person who can stand strongly holding this lady hand and supporting her.

Now When I talk of love ...I just remember about one video clip that I saw when Anuskha was approaching towards mandap ,the way Virat was looking at her ,jus the expression itself was meant for her like "U mean world to me". C’mon don’t chuckle. Said enough ,I love to watch human emotions much conveyed by eyes, expression and body language that I feel are louder than words:)

A wishful wish for I have now to see the Northern Lights and get soul enriched with those breathtaking view. See, I went out of context. Blame my mind that hops here and there every second ..But a dreamer by every means…

Life after Vacation

After such a long time when I take this break by visiting God's own country (I have always thought ,these guys are exaggerating,but not this tym),I am pumped up for my new assignment.The beautiful view of Munnar with clouds kissing down the mountain with each of their droplet to make her more green and beautiful than before.Rain has made it look more lush and added several variants shades of
greenery around.I still close my eyes feel all of them .Not to forget the beautiful trip from Munnar to Thekkady.Wonderful place and  I could manage to get a cottage which was in between so many herbal trees .I wish ,If i could have plucked those plump jack-fruits.I recollect yummilicious jack-fruit curry by my mom ,oh ,I miss so many things all at a time.Not to forget the best spa that rejuvenates for sure!Watching Kathakalli and Kalari was as if I have really seen what I used to read in my books.So peaceful and calm stay .My last visit to Alleppey ...my best takeaway from this
place was the jumbo prawns.Uff!Relished it till the last bite :P

Now back to mundane life.I hate being a jerk to miss my last work and some great folks around .I keep reminding myself "I am just a resource". Enough of satire,fair enough!Keep moving many more roads and prospects.I am little scared as rabbit coming out of its shelter for a long time ,may be out of its comfort zone.This is new ,yet beautiful.Why I feel like this ,such a long time I am here ..Not sure.
Not well,working from home ,i watch out to look dark cloudy sky ..What I perfect painter are you God!
Just mumbled few lines...

Ki zamana yeh bhala hai
Aur jo raah mein mila hai
Thodi door jo chala hai
Woh bhi aadmi bhala tha
Pata tha…
Zara bas khafa tha
Woh bhatka sa raahi mere gaanv ka hi
Woh rasta puraana jisey yaad aana
Zaroori tha lekin jo roya mere bin
Wo ek mera ghar tha
Puraana sa darr tha
Magar ab na main apne ghar ka raha
Safar ka hi tha main safar ka raha

Well,I am settling down for Chicken soup,any takers ?;)

Ciao!

Midnight ThinkTank overflow!

Its 3 A.M!I am still tossing sides on my bed.For Last week hectic schedule's hangover is still on my senses.Probably it happens to all .We don't have perennial tight schedules but I love my days when they tight budgeted on time.Being in software industries for 10 yrs,quite accomplished and satisfied with my work.I started picturing myself out in perfect frame of Life.Last week presentation to client seemed to have scored extra badge on my shoulder and my first milestone at this role of manager has been accomplished.Suddenly,a question disrupt my perfect life model.Why I am still awake and not satiated with what all I have yet?I have quiet many options to ponder and scrutinize.My Loo break and midnight coffee wake-ups are meant for brainstorming personal sessions where I vehemently fail to analyze clearly and reach to conclusion.I think of my mother's word ,to marry again  which gives a cold feet to me whenever it crosses my mind.To brief out that phase where I was married off to a handsome man by my parents to earn the social stature and future security for their daughter.I have had no complains ,its just didn't work out as expected.To sacrifice all you have i.e your career ,name identity dreams wasn't easy for me.For I cannot love myself that way and then how can I love anyone if i start disliking self.To my  utter surprise my partner could realize my suffocation and supported me to pull out from emotionally drenching commitments.I do feel sorry for him.We are still friends and occasionally catch up for coffee.What I am seeking is beyond any of this material pleasure or comforts.I seek unconditional LOVE like any Harper Lee novels,quite unrealistic for my age as I am no more a teenager.Quite unrealistic for career driven women mostly.For I needed a reason to calm down and slow my pace to observe the world around while getting lost in rat race.But How?I have never felt need for a man or anyone basically in life as I had been doing my work both outdoor and indoor  household chores quite efficiently.Occasionally will have dates with guy having more of better sense of humor rather than financial or physical charisma.Finally at 5:30 am,I realized I need to fulfill my wishes like having a bucket list and ticking off what I had always wanted to do as girl.May be that's the reason ,why I am feeling unsatisfied.I tucked up my hair into messy bun and went to kitchen to make my cup of ginger tea.While sipping it,a smile etched at corner of my lips,so I have cracked most difficult question now!